Not good enough? I choose to disagree.

Readers; it has come to my attention that there are some problems that we need to address.

First of all, I would like to start off with a status that my friend showed me posted by a fellow high school male-

" Guys look at confidence more than tits or ass, we find girls that don't give a f*** sexy."

First off, I would just like to state how untrue this is. Im sure some men do admire confidence in a woman, but from my personal expiriences, (Multiple step fathers) A woman who is not afraid to show her confidence- is a woman that gets thrown against walls, beaten, and emotionally abused.

And frankly, most high school "men" could care less about a women, and more about the size of her boobs and if she is willing to let herself be taken advantage of.

This brings up yet another important point- why a handful of absolutley beautiful high school girls feel like they are not good enough to be noticed by any sort of guy.
It is so much easier for men to take advantage of the girls who will allow them to, and most guys now days (and even girls too) are too lazy to make an effort to find someone to love them unconditionally, and would rather skrew anything that easy to take advantage of and walks.

Looks are what get most guy's attention, if lucky, a quick glance at the personality of a woman comes after she gives herself away to him- but usually by that time, the guy already moves onto his next subject.

Please understand, I am not making a generalization, there are tons of men out there that are absolutley amazing, who deserve nothing but the best.

but I have been so sickened by the guys in high school- that its hard to really see any of them in a good light.

I have had hockey players flirt with me, just so they can cheat off of my paper. They think its okay, women are easy to take advantage of, right? Well when I told them to back off, they got angry, calling me "an ungrateful slut" behind my back, and continuing to make fun of me for the rest of the semester.

I now have a fear of being in public, shopping is complete hell for me. Too many times have I gone in front of the class and had some guy shout out something like "Nice Ass" or "I'd make you a slut in no time." It is completely and utterly humiliating. I now find myself running from men, being paranoid that they are taking me apart piece by piece with thier minds. I feel disrespected any glance I get, and even when a guy happens to flirt with me, I immediatley assume he is mocking me and take offense.

It kills me to see girls that let guys walk all over them, disprespect them, and treat them like sex toys.

Women are supposed to be a creature of beauty, grace, wisdom, and mystery. It's hard to be that when we get ridiculed and put down for not making sluts of ourselves.

I have a friend who is one of the most beautiful people I know, she could have any guy she wanted. Yet, she does not date. She has respect for herself, and she chooses to wait and not let the disgusting comments and innopropriate behavior towards her break down her wall of confidence; in fact she is mocked for it. Blows to her religion, personality, and anything else a guy can happen to think of that will affect her.

She was even "jokingly" pinned in a corner by two guys, and later told me how disrespected they made her feel.

So, I hope my rant helped to put in perspective, that confidence is seen as a tool to mock women. A tool that broke me down enough to the point that I smashed many of my step father's breakable things, becuase the emotional abuse from him, my anger towards the many wounds I still bear from previous men, and my hatred of hockey players pushed me to a point where I emotionally broke.

But, damn. Smashing all those thing sure felt good.